It’s funny how invisible I’ve become because I don’t have a Facebook. The people I would consider my best friends forgot my birthday. I don’t get invited to things anymore and I my efforts to meet up have been fruitless. How pathetic! There’s only so much rejection I can take! I’m going to go back to being more independent and stop relying on others. I just get let down. My dog is the only one worth relying on, the hero!
Ive flights booked to England next week to see an old friend. At the moment I can’t face leaving home; I’m a home bird, so to speak. When I’m down, I only want to be at home; I can deal by going for a drive or a walk but I can’t manage if I’m away from home and my comfort. I don’t know how to say it to my friend. It’s hanging over me and has been for a week. I have a day off work booked that I could use to clear my head. If I go to England, I’ll have to go to clubs and then be under pressure from everyone to drink even though I tell them I can’t.
Need to catch a break, I don’t feel relaxed at all following the Christmas ‘break’.