I get in a relationship and my friends aren’t supportive. Again I’m thinking – why the fuck am I friends with these people! They’re poison. They won’t accept me for who I am. How can I manage my anger and frustration and accept them, when they don’t give me a break.
This is awesome.
I went to a therapist this week for the first time. It was actually rather nice. She is sound! Ok she did a lot of talking but it made me feel good. She doesn’t think I’m depressed anymore (win) and she also thinks it is perfectly normal to spend the majority of my time alone if I’m happy doing it.
Interestingly, she said, it reflects more on my friends and family telling me I’m weird for enjoying being alone than socialising. Because something is not right for them doesn’t mean it’s not right for me.
Also, that I have just matured faster than my friends because of the past two years. I’ve moved on from partying and drinking to staying in and filling my head with knowledge. That’s ok with me. Now I jsut have to learn how to accept people for who they are and they must accept me for who I’ve become…
In other news, I went on a date last week. For someone I had such chemistry with *on the internet*, I was bored with her in person. There was just nothing there. I don’t regret it because then I’d still be wasting my time now!! But I will not be seeing her again. I’ve never quite been so bored on a date before. Harsh, but true.
As it’s coming towards Paddy’s Day here, my friend booked flights to come here for 5 days. Stupid flight was cancelled this morning so he can’t make it. Ruined my day, not it’s up to me to make sure it doesn’t ruin my weekend. When I planned to go to him in December the damn flight was cancelled too! What is going on! Why is fate doing this? Anyway, the rest of the day will be reading and podcasts, with helpful supplies of chocolate and hopefully some interesting reads on WordPress.
Inspire me World, feed me inspiration
Is this a sign of a healthy relationship that you argue about the stupidest things? Both of you can’t read each other; you can’t tell when the other person is making a joke. When make out that it’s vindictive, you make them react with anger.
The responses you receive are due to the vitriol you give. And then they ask me for my opinion, which should never be asked. Keep your shit between the two of you.
Listening and observing is interesting. All I can see is two people banging their heads against a wall. Neither of you will back down. It’s just their fault, it’s your fault too. Are you really happy here? I don’t see it much. I see stress. I see you both wearing each other down. This relationship is what you both want but the communication is mainly is raised tones and accusatory comments. It could be so much better than this.
In Ireland, because I don’t drink or go to nightclubs, I’m branded ‘dry’ and ‘a loser’.
Thanks Ireland! Now tell me there’s no drinking culture. Tell me all the things events I can attend that isn’t ruined by everyone else being incapacitated. It’s not the fun, welcoming place everyone makes out. Luckily I don’t need alcohol to talk to girls I like, or to go to concerts, or just to socialise on the weekends.