So two of my good friends went on first dates at the weekend.. And they come in to work today asking me when am I going to get a new girlfriend?! Hmmm.. I don’t usually plan it! I am so happy for them both. They’re smitten and the two guys seem genuine. But I hate when suddenly I’m expected to settle down just because they are.
In a way, it would be nice. But I know after a couple of months, I’ll annoy my girl. I don’t want to go clubbing, or to bars or to the cinema every weekend. I am too stubborn and enjoy my own time too much for a relationship. I just end up hurting my exes because I insist on getting my own way. Depression has ruined some things alright, but it allows me to be more independent than anyone else I know.
Unfortunately I’m also sooo picky when it comes to girls. I don’t think I could date someone who drinks now. I won’t date smokers, I’ve dated short girls but I don’t want to do that again (I’m 5’11”) and I really would need someone with similar interests. I think it’s rare to find someone I genuinely click with. So I’m not waiting around or searching for ‘the one’, even if my friends want me to.
I’m a firm believer in fate. And if there’s someone out there for me, then I’ll meet her when the time is right, timing is more important than you think.