What is normal?

Is it normal to want to spend all your time alone? I don’t know what it is but I just don’t want to be around anyone.

I feel like the real me, is the depressed, pensive one. And when I’m around others, I have to pretend to be happy, be someone I’m not and endure small talk and pressing issues like what to wear this weekend, or which boy should I choose.

I simply don’t care about many things now. Nothing seems important to me apart from my dog!

I can’t imagine being truly happy again and wanting to be around my friends all the time and not having to force myself out of the house everyday. This has become normal to me. But all my friends and family think I’m so weird. I don’t connect with anyone anymore. My friends can’t see where I’m coming from and their issues don’t matter to me.

I know the time will come when I’ve shut everyone out. But I’m becoming less tolerant and more frustrated and trapped. I don’t think anyone else gets it.

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3 thoughts on “What is normal?

  1. It’s a good thing to spend time alone. We all fake more or less-it’s just how the world goes round, I guess. The point is to find that someone who’d understand your need to be alone some time.

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